Today it Rains

Both inside and out. I feel heavy and slow and sad. Just moving my body takes more effort than it has any reason to. A real struggle. I can feel something shifting inside and it's taking alot of energy. More than I have. I wanted to go to work this AM after my session with Debra, but I couldn't do it. Not after spending my 50 minute hour with tears running down my face. It hasn't stopped yet. Five hours later. I want comfort, but I can't seem to create it for myself.